Blah...

That's how I'm feeling lately. Not really that I don't feel well physically. Although waking up at 3 in the morning (plus countless other times) during the night with an aching back and numb arms and hands is adding to my "blahness." I just feel unmotivated. I feel tired a lot and lonely. I think I miss my husband. Yes, that's it...I miss my husband. Sure he is normally at work during this time anyway...but, oh wait, it's a SUNDAY! And yet no husband. Stupid turnaround. (I realize I sound like a spoiled child but indulge me.) I only see him for an hour in the evenings and he's often so tired that he is falling asleep before getting in bed or he has other things he needs to get done in the little time he has. Thus leaving me to feel like I still haven't gotten to truly visit with him. And I think what is making this even harder is knowing that once this is over we still won't have much time together because our little Gabriel will be here.

Don't get me wrong. I am thrilled to pieces about Gabriel's arrival. I am on pins and needles!!!! It's so close yet each day makes it feel so far away. I just wish I could enjoy these last few weeks with my loving husband because our family dynamic is about to change forever in the most wonderful of ways...I just want to enjoy the dynamic we have now for a little bit before the big change comes. Does that make sense?