Staying Present
I didn't post yesterday. That was intentional.
Every year that I have had this blog I have posted about September 11. It has been a bit therapeutic. Because, while my dad lived, I'm lucky, it is still a gigantic jolt to the system. Watching those images every year on TV. It's the closest I'll probably ever get to time travel as my mind goes right back to that day. It's not a happy experience folks. Sure...it ends with joy and gratefulness...but the waiting...oh the waiting.
So why didn't I post yesterday? Because after last year's post in which I shared my side of the "story" I feel a sense of closure. I'm not sure why. This year was the first time I almost forgot about it. And while I'll never forget...who could? It was really nice to not feel chained to that date for the first time.
I am finally able to remain in the present on September 11. It took 11 years, but I am ever so grateful. I'm sure I'm not explaining this feeling effectively, but there it is.
This year I got to enjoy the small things...like converting my kids play table back to sand for the cooler weather months. :)
Every year that I have had this blog I have posted about September 11. It has been a bit therapeutic. Because, while my dad lived, I'm lucky, it is still a gigantic jolt to the system. Watching those images every year on TV. It's the closest I'll probably ever get to time travel as my mind goes right back to that day. It's not a happy experience folks. Sure...it ends with joy and gratefulness...but the waiting...oh the waiting.
So why didn't I post yesterday? Because after last year's post in which I shared my side of the "story" I feel a sense of closure. I'm not sure why. This year was the first time I almost forgot about it. And while I'll never forget...who could? It was really nice to not feel chained to that date for the first time.
I am finally able to remain in the present on September 11. It took 11 years, but I am ever so grateful. I'm sure I'm not explaining this feeling effectively, but there it is.
This year I got to enjoy the small things...like converting my kids play table back to sand for the cooler weather months. :)